Skylar is 3 months old today

wow it just feels like yesterday i was in the hospital waiting to meet my little girl!! the time has went by so fast. I never knew that i could love someone so much, and that person could change my life forever. Everytime she smiles it just melts my heart. I can stay awake all night to just watch her sleep, anytime she crys im always right there giving her whatever she wants. I thank god for blessing me with such a great gift. I almost lost her so many times during the whole 8 months that i carried her and prayed to god please let me have this one. I had to fight a hard battle and i won and if i had to i would do it all over again!! I love you Skylar Ann

Skylar has her first tooth coming up and poor baby it hurts her so bad.

Im going Friday to go get another scan done for my cancer im hoping for better news im going to a different dr just for a second look at it and to see what he sayes. I know its something serious and i need to get it taken care of soon but its at the back of my head with taking care of skylar and then gavin has his next surgery coming up im not worried about myself just my kids. Tony called me selfish and i didnt understand why because im putting the children ahead of myself like any mother would do. he said that i was selfish because its something that could kill me if not taking care of and that i would be selfish to make the kids grow up with out their mom. i couldnt do nothing but cry i ran to the bathroom and locked my self up and cried and then i wanted to blame god for this asking him how could he do it to me why?tony is right and im glad that he gave me a wake up call, tony and i cried together and i told him that im really scared i dont want the worse to happen i just want to beable to live my life. I have never understand why things happen but i know that god has a plan for me.

please keep me and my family in your prays im so scared