Bad news From the ob/gyn

Sp today tony checked the mail and there was a note from my doctors office. my heart just fell i didnt know if it was going to be good news that my cancer cells were gone are bad news. well i open the letter and started crying there is an abnormality in one of my test. So they are going to go back in and do a colposcopy i had one back in october while carring skylar they go in and look at your cervix with a special magnifying device that takes pictures of your cervix. They will once again do a biopsy on the cells they will remove them from my cervix which really hurts and bleeds really bad and then those cells will be tested to see if my cancer has spread or getting better.The first one i cried the whole time is very painful and then after it was done i had a hard time getting in the truck i couldnt drive and a hard time using the bathroom they say that you will be sore with a biopsy for a couple of days because your cervix is swelling from them removing the cells.

i havent decide on when im going to do it, i need to so it soon i will have to see when my mom is going to be off again because i have had my sister in law watch skylar and my mother in law watch her and it was such a bad experience. they just have not taken care of infants in a while and i guess forgot who knows and i know that im going to need someone there with me because of the pain and driving me home and i know that tony wouldnt make me go through that alone.

I have the first stage of cervix cancer they have 5 stages
Im just praying that it hasnt spread